what’s crazy is

 

after a loooong thursday working my job

i sit with a pint behind a big window

as i like to do at this small craft brewery

cuz of the music they play and the beer they make

and how their large store front windows

looking out onto the corner of south 10th ave and east lake street

allow me to watch minneapolis and the world go by and today

i see in front of me

through the double glazed glass panes

a young woman sitting alone outside at one of the brewery’s tables

chatting with someone

speaking out loud to them

through the speaker on her huge tv phone

listening to the replies of a person who isn’t there

on her white wireless headphones

then gesturing and laughing

meanwhile, directly in front of both her and me

beyond the brewery’s patio

through the glass panes of the metrotransit bus stop

across the rush hour traffic flowing west, then east, down lake street

at the bus stop on the opposite, eastbound side

i watch as a man wearing white and orange medical bracelets

and dirty jeans and a muscle shirt and red ball cap

dances and gestures and speaks and laughs to himself

grabbing pieces of trash from the ground and spinning around

as the others waiting for a bus watch him and smile

or snicker and frown and step out of his way

until the 21A stops then pulls away

and the man is gone

and i sit alone writing this down

and the young woman gestures and laughs and speaks out loud

to a person who isn’t there

all hands on deck #1 – there is no American race

yo, this is heatflow

and this is all hands on deck

not some hands, not a few hands, not a majority of hands

this is all hands

all hands on deck

now check this

 

must we identify

by identity

cuz America is more

than you

tripping about you

and me

tripping about me

 

vaping image, huffing ego

chasing selfies, clouds of pixels

shivering children, fractured families

bombs of blame, addicts of pain

identity made

into a no winner game

and yet

we tripping on it

all the same

 

brothers, sisters

fellow humans, next door neighbors

must we identify

by identity

America is stronger

than you

tripping about you 

and me

tripping about me

thought lung #2 – breathe

human being,

stop huffing, start b r e a  t  h  i   n   g

stop tripping, start dreaming

 

stop hating, start b r e a  t  h  i   n   g

stop dying, start living

 

stop greeding, start b r e a  t  h  i   n   g

stop starving, start feasting

 

stop choking, start b r e a  t  h  i   n   g

stop hurting, start healing

 

paycheck to paycheck

cuz imagine if the billionaires were living paycheck to paycheck

imagine how better off all of us would be

if they spent half those paychecks at the corner store

waiting in line to pay for chips, toothpaste and the lottery

 

cuz imagine if the billionaires were living paycheck to paycheck

maybe then it wouldn’t matter if you’re in a boardroom or working the frontlines

cuz your family would be fed and clothed and housed and schooled

and you’d still have good money left behind

 

cuz imagine if the billionaires were living paycheck to paycheck

like do they need that one and only Ferrari for their collection

as much as i need to buy my one and only ride to their job across the river

a used chevy malibu and a wage good enough to drive across a city

that says it can’t afford a bus line way out to my small town

 

cuz the billionaires ain’t living paycheck to paycheck

telling everyone self reliance is better than relying on the government

yeah and then paying us all wages so low

that self reliance is a way of life that’s only affordable on billionaires row

 

cuz the answer’s never been in some impossible ideology

some simple minded utopia

where perfect people follow a perfect ideology to some perfect result

it’s just been i’d like to feed myself and my kids without losing control

 

cuz imagine if the billionaires were living paycheck to paycheck

imagine how better off america would be

if they spent half those paychecks at the corner school

waiting in line to invest in a healthy america that could not be beat

 

maybe then our kids won’t be forced to live on rafts made of plastic garbage

floating down the flooded city streets their grandparents skipped across

no longer choosing to learn chinese and russian at a university

but being forced to speak it when the fresh water’s all gone

how the water city flows

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minneapolis

mini polis

dakota, greek

water city

and what a place

at a confluence

at a falls

the water dropping over what once were limestone ledges

then 7 miles down, the waters joining

the minnesota river, the mississippi river

the mini so tah wahk pah joining the haha wahk pah

the river of cloudy water flowing into the river of the falls

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and south of the glinting skyscrapers of downtown flows lake street

running like a river from sunrise to sunset

a straight line running 5 miles between white earth lake and river of the falls

between bde maka ska and haha wahk pah

a street that is a river of languages in glowing signs 

at the end where the sun sets

it’s the apple store and cowboy bar and designer furniture boutique

in it’s midway point the signs are swirling now

restaurantes next to halal meats

a western wall covered in a huge burner graf piece

dur dur bakery next to mercado central

imported food store fronts next to bondage leather and kink supplies

a bank branch, a dollar store

a global market built inside the shell of a sears headquarters

vietnamese autobody shops, chiropractor mexicanos

accidente empleados? accidente auto?

the taco trucks in the empty parking lots

in front of the k-mart and across from the pioneers and soldiers cemetery

still selling their tacos de lengua in the cold

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and at the end where the sun rises

tax preparers and walgreens

further to a print shop, further to a wood working tool supplier

silk screened band posters taped in a window

vices, clamps and braces laid out in rows

then a bridge over the great river and lake street becomes marshall

two rivers, a falls, a lake, a city, a street

a confluence, a stop, a go

how the water city flows

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why u asking

when raindrops fall through the sun

and sunlight falls through the rain

human being

why u start asking

is it the rain falling through the sun

or is it the sun falling through the rain

human being why

why u wondering which is the one

why u saying or

why u parsing

why u always breaking things apart

when on your open palms u feel each drop

of falling rain and falling sun

as one

unwitting thumbs

this is the tribal mind rising

the calls ringing out in text messages and news alerts and emails

“which side are you on, which side are you on!”

what once was a neighborhood, a borough, a community, a nation

now’s only tribe

and tribe connecting to tribe on social media

as humanity splinters

as common value and common belief gets dissected into tiny pieces

with knives of demographics and thumb drives of polling data

so no leader has vision strong enough to stitch us back together

 

this is the tribal mind rising

opinions served as facts

self obsession confused as self expression

on the same social media platforms where

we share beautiful pictures of our newborns, our fur babies, our vacations

we curse and disparage and harass and insult and condemn

how powerful it feels to share examples of the goodness in our lives in one post

while in the next we say fuck that other tribe fuck them all they’re goin down

that other tribe who lives in a far away city in a far away place

across the state, across town, across the river, across the street

who lives right next door across the hall

across the living room in the 4K screens

in our heads

 

this is the tribal mind rising

every day driving a sick margin call on our mental health

what if i can’t back up that smile in my selfie

with enough happiness

our social lives coupled now to the overactive immune system of social media

an immune system prone to tripping out and being played

chasing the ghosts of false information, of doubt, of human weakness

to a place in our lives

to a place in the daily life of America

to a place in this world

that’s as lost as a worthless rumor

 

this is the tribal mind rising

faintly in the background of billions of little glowing screens

the multi-million dollar fees wired to offshore accounts

of ex-military intelligence influence peddlers

whose pre-election psy-ops campaigns nestle amongst the pictures

of our puppies, our weddings, our friends

while unseen amongst the trillions of packets

flowing through millions of routers every day

the gigantic shit-eating grins

on the faces of generals and ministers and presidents in Russia

the pats on the backs for the boys at the GRU

who have found the buttons to push

the buttons to just hold down

 

this is the tribal mind rising

as we tap and post and comment and swipe

our unwitting thumbs pounding American wedges

into American cracks

doing the damage for our adversaries with one post

sharing cookie recipes with our families the next

hold up, let me take a selfie first

the cutting times have now arrived

driven by a tribal mind now so awake and stirring

all of us surfing waves of self waves of me waves of i

wasted on the biggest high of humankind

the trip we take about our selves

about the ego avatars we build

up in our heads

under our domes of social media tech

like social media mech-warriors

going through player load-outs

all of us clicking through drop-downs

our weaponry of identity of sexuality

dna flag name politics and cash money

the pre-set choices of required information text boxes

all of us just min-maxing our humanity but we do it anyway

so we can say here’s my profile, this is me

and here’s my tribe tripping on some aggravated vanity

a selfie just a slogan flashing in and fading out

faces just getting played out

humans just swiped away to somewhere else

under someone else’s thumb under someone else’s eye

cut me out cut me in cut me from you cut me from them

with knives of pics and tats and stats

all of us behind the wheel when the cutting times arrived

driven by a tribal mind now so awake and stirring

so i’ll listen to you in a second

i’ll recognize your humanity in a minute

i’ll cut you from this car wreck in a moment

just let me take a selfie of me crawling from it first

 

thought lung #1 – breathe

how many selfies you gonna take

till you know what you look like

how many social media posts you gonna post up

till you know you were seen

how many mirrors you gonna seek

till you know the reflection’s your choice

how many ego trips you gonna take

till you know your life’s not about you

the dance of your body felt by another’s hands

the intent of your words flowing through another’s actions

the lines of your face traced by another’s eyes

the love you gave remembered by someone else’s soul

how many thoughts we gonna choke on

till we learn our minds are thought lungs

till we learn we can breathe

breathe our thoughts

breathe

narcissus in the squeeze chute

all of us trying to be our own personal brand and none of us asking how it feels

to be flat and shiny and spread around like info jizz

so confused by a media haze, hitched to a worthless gaze, while the screens blaze

all of us trying to be our own personal brand and none of us asking how it feels

to stand up for ourselves on a screen with a profile, but not with our words, our actions, our bodies, our souls, our love

straight addicted to thoughts, thoughts looped in knots, not’s and cant’s and wont’s

all of us trying to be our own personal brand and none of us asking how it feels

to be narcissus in the squeeze chute, burning our own brands red hot across our own eyes

so blind, we start peeling faces with places, dicing souls with races

all of us trying to be our own personal brand and none of us asking how it feels

to be tripping on dreams, never just dreaming, huffing fates, never just breathing

breathing in the wisdom from centuries ago…

 

To carry the self forward and illuminate myriad things is delusion. That myriad things come forth and illuminate the self is awakening.’

 

– From the Genjokoan, as translated by Robert Aitken and Kazuaki Tanahashi. Revised at San Francisco Zen Center, and later at Berkeley Zen Center; published (2000) in Tanahashi, Enlightenment Unfolds(Boston: Shambhala), 35-9. Earlier version in Tanahashi 1985 (Moon in a Dewdrop), 69-73, also Tanahashi and Schneider 1994 (Essential Zen).